Dear X & Y

Dear X & Y,

It’s really funny how things turn out sometimes, who could you guess that you’re actually ended up together? I mean, man, I never guessed it in the first place. You are both very close to me and I trust both you to listen to my pathetic love life and the life itself and ask you for some advices too. It’s funny that I ask both of you for different point of view yet it comes out nearly the same. I never guessed you’re both would be together. Never.

Dear X,

We first met in semester one of college and getting to know and closer to each other since we are in the same class and ever since then, we spent the time nearly together with our group. During those exam times, we usually spent the time at my house study and you and the other guys would just mock around. I know you as the guy with the biggest mouth ever, you can say the meanest thing about me yet I couldn't get angry with you since it’s true. You’re sensitive for a guy, in a good way. That’s why I really feel comfortable telling you all my stories. Our friendship is not always comes out good, I remember you’re making a gap between us because of your ex-girlfriend and we always tell you how nonsense the relationship was. I know we are all hated by your ex-girlfriend. It seems like I’m born to be hated by my best friends’ girlfriends hey? Haha. Anyway, finally you’re free from the complication and the nonsense and you’re back with us and that’s how your story started.

Dear Y,

My first impression with you was ugly, you came and talk to me with what you called your expressions and left. Now I know that, the face expression is your bad habit. Jutek. But then, I get to know you in 3rd semester and we get closer since then. I feel very comfortable talking to you, you’re a listener. Your love life is something that I and the other guys always make fun of, I mean those protective 3 years? You deserve better. Finally, after those mean words we say to you, you finally realize that you deserve something better and need to free yourself. And here you are, after those tears and bad days, you are once again happy and moved one and that’s how your story started.

Dear X & Y,

I’m sorry I always bug you two for the inside stories during the process but hey! That’s what someone with a pathetic love life needs after all, haha. I’m really glad that you two told me all the stories though it’s kinda hard to keep. I am the happiest person on earth when I found out that you two actually are ended up together. I don’t know why, maybe because finally both of you have a ‘proper’ relationship.

Dear X & Y,

You’re journey is just began and it’s not always be smooth and whatever happens please put aside your egos when you’re in a conflict. I’m ready to listen to all your stories, I’m all ears. There’s gonna be a lot of problems ahead, solve it with cool heads. I can’t wish you for a perfect relationship, I can only wish you, after all those imperfections you guys found in each other personalities, I hope you two still together. Aaah, what the heck am I saying? I just want both of you to be happy and please don’t indulgence too much Twitter Display Affection in my timeline. Show some respect to the single ones, muahahaha.

Dear X & Y,

Shouldn’t both of you thank Tiny Towers and Temple Run? Thank God for an Apple right?

Love,

Your effing cute friend, Fida.

P.S sorry for the crappy writings

Letter to future me

Dear future me,

It’s 3 minutes to my 21st birthday and I’m still up trying to write 500 words of essay. Yes, I’m currently chasing the future, a better future.

Dear future me,

I’m currently listening to Forever Young by Audrey Mae, the lyrics are just words that I want to achieve in this 21st birthday. I got this sad feeling comes over me, maybe because of the music or maybe because I’m just being emotional. I don't know. May you always be courageous, stand upright and be strong….

Dear future me,

It feels different now, last year I was nervous of what kinda birthday I'll get but now, I'm too busy finishing my thesis and application letter that I forget it's nearly my birthday. Since, people start mentioning that my birthday is coming I'm starting to think what kinda of birthday I get this year. I never expect to have a dramatic birthday where there's a rock idol I adore come to me and give me a birthday cake, no, I just want to share it with my close people. In fact, it's nothing to celebrate, one step closer to death, you know what I mean? But it's my day and everyone seems to care and that's the happiest thing. I don't need to be given a quite expensive gift, a simple sincere prayer is enough for me. The love that people give makes me happy already. Cliche thing.

Dear future me,

There are a lot of things that I want to thank God for. I want to thank God for giving me supportive family, I know sometimes I’d like to fight with mum or have different argument with dad but that’s normal isn’t it? I have weird siblings and cousins under the same roof, I am blessed for that. I want to thank God for giving me such great and wonderful friends around me, who are always ready to be my painkillers and happy pills. And they’re weird too. I want to thank God for giving me such script for my life which is very wonderful and I should be grateful of. I want to thank God for everything. Damn, it sounds cliché, but it’s the truth.

May God bless and keep you always,

May your wishes all come true,

May you always do for others

And let others do for you.

May you build a ladder to the stars

And climb on every rung,

May you stay forever young,

May you stay forever young.

Dear future me,

Right now, I am obsessed with One Direction. A group of teenage boys from UK and their album have been playing all day long, accompany me to spend my last time of being 20. I feel like a teenage girl drooling over these guys, they're cute though. They're like a new version of Westlife. My tumblr dashboard full of them, oops, I shouldn't mention tumblr in here. Anyway, I have started to write 21 things I want to do after I turn 21 and hopefully by the time you read this, we already accomplish half of them or may be all of them.

May you grow up to be righteous,

May you grow up to be true,

May you always know the truth,

And see the lights surrounding you.

May you always be courageous,

Stand upright and be strong,

May you stay forever young,

May you stay forever young.

Dear future me,

Its 12.15 am, I’ve already receive couple of birthday wishes. I am very happy and blessed. It's time to sleep now.

May your hands always be busy,

May your feet always be swift,

May you have a strong foundation

When the winds of changes shift.

May your heart always be joyful,

May your song always be sung,

May you stay young forever,

May you stay young forever.

Dear future me,

I am officially 21 years young.

Love,

Fida

Letter to the craziest people on earth #1

Dear people,
It's funny how we come across each other, I mean, we know who we were before, where we stood and all that stuff. But, somehow the universe put us together, forming of what we are today. You are the trashiest, the dumbest, and the most stubborn talkers I've ever known so far but, at the end of the day, we know that we never really talked about trash and that you're not really dumb (haha). And it seems like we never get along with each other; we called each other stupid, pigs, monkeys, and other inappropriate names we know but that's just how behave around each other.

Dear people,
I really don't know what happens after we graduated, we're going to separate, going to our own path and catching our own dreams. And just by thinking about that, I miss you already.

Dear people,
Our friendship is not always smooth, there's always conflict here and there and according to my Consumer Behaviour lecturer, sometimes, conflict is needed in an organization to let us become more creative, innovative and dynamic. What am I talking about? well that was one of the final exam questions (krik!). Anyway, if any of us is involved in a conflict, I hope that you always remember the good times we had, the things we've shared, the stories we told and how far we've gone so that you always come back where we used to be and the problem solves as the way it is.

Dear people,
I am really glad to meet you and to have you in my life, to teach me tiny little things and to give me different point of views about life. I'm really glad that I did meet you.

Love,
Fida.

Running through 2011

I don't quite remember what my 2011 resolutions were but I remember telling them to Endah through Yahoo Messenger on new year eve. I only remember that two of them were to gain money and expand my network. And hey, it happened this year. Maybe I should thank local government for bringing SEA Games to Palembang that they gave me job? maybe. But because of them, I met hundred people across the globe; from the very east of Asia to our closest neighbor. I worked with different people from 3 different countries in less than 6 months; I worked with the chatty Iranian, friendly Singaporean and funny Burmese. I've made new friends, gotten to know many people, and have seen how complicated our country is. But they are all made a story worth telling.

I've gambled about my feelings, have told the truth, taken chances, ruined my GPA, gotten high, felt disappointed. I've tasted it all. And I'd like to regret things I've done but I remember it was things that I wanted to do at one point of my life. But it was all worth it. Above it all, the year is ended with my research proposal got accepted (though with revision), yay!

Desi Anwar once tweeted, "Don't forget about your future. Just tidy your room, get your work done, do some exercise, take up a hobby. You'll do fine." And I think that's how I'm gonna live my 2012.

I hope this is not too late for a new year post.